From: "Killion, Mr Wayne" Date: Mon, 21 Sep 1998 Subject: Transcript Belloby Her is the latest installment for the Counseling series. Hope you all enjoy it. Feel free to comment so I know which direction to go for the next installment. Written by Wayne Killion and Wayne Coleman >From the archives of Therapseuchos Killiow Subject: Siress Belloby Killiow: Please come in. Belloby: Why thank you kind sir, I think I will. Killiow: What may I do for you today? Belloby: Since the center opened, I thought that I might check you out, uhh, I mean check the center out. I was here for the celebration of the opening, and the open house. It was very nice. It was good way to get the word out too. Killiow: It is always good to have visitors, I'm glad you came by. Is there anything in particular that you would like to know about the center, or do you have any specific questions? Belloby: Not really. I've just never really been in one before, and I was kind of curious. Killiow: Well, all of the colonies had centers set up. Even though we have come a long way, and the quality of life has been improved upon greatly, life is still life. Sometimes people need a little help, or in some cases, a lot. Some people just need someone to listen and others are looking for answers they already have. They just need to be pointed in the right direction to find them. There are other situations where it is medical, and those get referred. Belloby: What kind of things do you deal with here? Killiow: They vary in nature. Each person reacts uniquely to situations and circumstances. People respond in many ways, from denial to self destruction. Belloby: You must have some really good stories to tell. Killiow: We have had our share. Belloby: Anything you can tell me about? Killiow: I'm afraid not. The information in this office is somewhat unique, and has a unique classification of "Personal Classified, Level 1". That would be a violation of regs, the code of ethics and conduct if I revealed anything. Belloby: I'm not familiar with that classification. Killiow: All information stays here unless the client is going to hurt someone, hurt themselves, or there are illegalities involved. The other exception is if they are not capable of carrying out their duties, which could endanger the fleet. Even then, only the Command Staff are notified. Belloby: Certainly there must something? Killiow: I'm afraid not. Belloby: The center is really nice, how long did it take to get it open, and what pushed the decision through to get them started? Killiow: After the holocaust, people really needed help. The centers were needed more than ever. Once we got underway, and settled, people began realizing what happened, and needed to deal with it. With our limited resources, it was difficult to get things started, but Commander Adama felt it wise to get the centers operational as soon as possible. Between the holocaust, and the everyday stuff people need help with, Adama knew it would start creating problems later on. Once all the living spaces were sorted out the Commander had space set aside. The first center opened up on the orphan ship for the children. The next center opened up on the Celestria followed by the Rising Star. This one was the most recent to open. We now have 15 centers operating throughout the fleet. We eventually plan to open centers on as many ships as possible, allowing for resources of course. Belloby: It sounds like you've come a long way. Killiow: We have. Belloby: Has anyone ever told you that you have beautiful eyes. Killiow: Uhh. Thank you. Belloby: Is that all you can say? How about "Would you like to go to dinner tonight?". Killiow: My apologies but I'm on duty, and as far as getting involved, if it were to start here, it could raise questions of ethics and conduct. I would be more than happy to talk with you here for a while though. I don't have any appointments for the next few centares. Belloby: Talk, talk, talk. What does a woman have to do to get some attention around here? Killiow: Do you feel like you are not getting any attention? Belloby: I never do. Killiow: How long have you felt that way? Belloby: Longer than you've been alive. Killiow: Why do you feel this way. Belloby: Are you trying to analyze me? Remember I'm not a patient. Killiow: Not really, I was trying to pay attention. Belloby: Oh...you are so adorable. If you want to hear my story I'll tell you, I have nothing to hide. My father was a scientist on Sagitara. He was always working so I didn't see him much, and he did a great deal of traveling through out the colonies. His area of expertise was submolecular quantum dynamics. In other words, he was into the physics of energy. He was always searching for energy and new sources, and how to maximise them. He was brilliant. Mother on the other hand was totally to opposite. She spent most of her time drinking. What little time she was home, she was usually out cold. She didn't give daggit's drool about what happened to me, I spent most of my time with neighbors. Thank the Lords I was an only child. Killiow: Tell me more. Belloby: I use to try to get her stop drinking and stay home, but she never listened. She would go out with her friends and forget all about her responsibilities and Dad and me. One day she just left and never came back. Killiow: What happened? Belloby: She ran away with one of her bar buddies. She left a message for my father telling him she was leaving, and that he needed to take care of me. Luckily he was on Sagitara when it happened. I suppose I should be grateful that she remembered me at all, but I'm not. For a long time I felt it was my fault and I blamed myself for her walking out on us. As I got older I began to hate her for what she did. I wanted nothing more than to hurt her the way she had hurt us. Eventually I outgrew all that, and now all I feel for her is pity. Killiow: So what happened after your mother left? Belloby: After my mother left, it was just my Father and I. My father's job was very important to him, and I was uprooted from my home and the few friends that I had, and spent a lot of time traveling with him. The only so called friends I had were the tutors that he hired to teach me as we traveled, and his associates. The people father worked with were very brilliant and nice people. I learned a lot from them. Killiow: I bet you got quite an extensive education, especially in sceince and mathematics. Belloby: I did, and I rated very high in the aptitude testing for the academy, and for other higher education facilities. Killiow: Did you ever go to any of them? Belloby: No, I wanted a normal life. Killiow: You felt that you didn't have a normal life? Belloby: Not at all, but you get used to it. I had my share of fits of anger and frustration but I survived. Killiow: You are definitely a survivor, there's no question about that. Would you tell me more about your father? Belloby: I loved my father very much. He was a very kind and gentle man. Before mother left, he spent much of his time away from home, and I didn't really get to know him in my early yahrens. He got up early in the morning, and went to work, before I got up. By the time he came home I was already in bed. I remember how he used to come in my room and pull the blankets up to keep me warm. He would lean over me and kiss me gently on the forehead and whisper how much he loved me. Killiow: It sounds like you thought very highly of your father. Belloby: I still do. My father worked very hard. He gave me the best of what he could. I don't think he ever realized the only thing I really wanted was him. Killiow: Did you have any other family around? Belloby: No. My grandparents lived on Sagitara near the Colonial weapons manufacturing facility. A surprise attack by a Cylon task force took the facility out as well as my grandparents and about 4000 other people. Shortly following the attack Sagitara brought the new defense grid on line. Once it was operational they thought that it would be impossible for the Cylons ever to spring another surprise attack on them. They sure in Hades were wrong on that one. What does a girl have to do to get a drink around here? Killiow: I'm sorry. Would you like some water or a kaffe? Belloby: How about some grog? Killiow: We don't keep alcohol in the center. Belloby: No wonder the people around here seem like their undergarments are pulled to tightly up the butt. Killiow: Excuse me... Belloby: Oh come on, can't you take a joke? Killiow: Certainly. I was going to say excuse me, for a moment, to get another glass out of the storage unit. Belloby: Oh, sorry. Killiow: No need to apologize. You have quite a sense of humor don't you? Belloby: A lot of people have told me so but I believe that it is just my nature. Killiow: A sense of humor is a wonderful asset for a person to have, especially for our current circumstances. If yours just comes naturally you should consider yourself lucky. Belloby: I could spend the rest of my life bitter and angry, but I won't. Life is too short. You're quite the charmer aren't you? Killiow: Let's get back to our conversation. What happened with your father? Belloby: Not much really changed. Father continued to drown himself in his work, as we went from one facility to the next. I continued to be lonely. Everything remained as it always did until I turned 26 yahrens old. Killiow: What happened then? Belloby: I fell in love. His name was Ramira. He came from a small town off of the Valencia coast on Scorpia. He was a very good looking and wealthy man. I thought that he was next best thing since the invention of dietary supplements. We were sealed a yahren after we met. Killiow: How did that affect your father? Belloby: I honestly believe that my father learned what loneliness was himself at that point. When he came home there was no one there was no one there. Killiow: There are a lot of people who feel that way. Belloby: Ramira and I were married for 7 yahrens then I terminated our sealing contract. Although I loved him immensely he was constantly cheating on me. I took him before a tribunal and got half of everything he had and became a very self reliant. I made good investments with my currency and just got richer and richer. That's where my education came in. I invested quite a bit of money in energy research and development, I knew what would and would not work, and it paid off big time. I became a very wealthy woman. Killiow: So all of that did have some advantages. Belloby: I will admit that living a high end life style was enjoyable, and it still is. I'm still a little involved in energy R&D, right now we need all the help we can get. I'll probably wind up a lot involved in time. Killiow: I'll bet he's quite proud of his little girl. Belloby: Actually he was, he had no idea that I would ever go into the business that he thought I hated the most. By the time I was thirty five, my father was getting on in yahrens. Eventually his health started giving way, and he gave up research and retired. He hated having to do that. He moved in with me, and that's when we really got to know each other. I could take care of him and all of his needs. Killiow: How long did he live with you? Belloby: About 14 yahrens. I never remarried. My father died in the holocaust, in a care facility. Not from natural causes, but from the attack during the holocaust. Killiow: I'm sorry. Belloby: Don't be. Everybody lost someone that the cared about that day. My father had a long life and was ready to go. I knew he loved me and that's all that mattered. So you see even though I complain about not getting any attention in the long run it did not matter. I had everything I needed. I had a good home, a father who loved me and lots of money, what more could I ask for? Killiow: You tell me. Belloby: Well I would have preferred a normal family. I would have loved to have had a successful sealing. I would have liked to have known my father earlier on in life, but preferences don't count for much. The reality was that life dealt me a lousy hand and I bluffed my way though enough to win in the end. Killiow: You have definitely found a positive way of looking at things. Belloby: I had to. Do you know that you are the first person that I have told any of this to? Killiow: I am honored. Belloby: Would you mind if I stopped by again? I have an appointment on the Olympia that I have to get to. Killiow: Not at all. It was nice talking with you. I'll look forward to seeing you again. Summary: Although Siress Belloby was not in here for an official session I wanted to document our visit. She is an outstanding woman with wit and charm that is contagious. Although she can be a little abrasive at times, she has proven herself able to make the best out of difficult situations. She's highly intelligent, inventive and imaginative. The one thing that concerns me, is that with the loss of her father she is once again alone. I sincerely hope that she is not using her humor as a mask for a much deeper pain, or that she will delve herself into something to shut people out. She has many wonderful qualities, and can make a substantial contribution on many levels and areas. Only time will tell. I look forward to her again. End transcript Lonnie Wayne Killion DPWL WAN Admin/IMO/ Information Systems Security Manager BLDG #308 Fort Myer 101 Fenton Circle Arlington VA 22211-1199 E-Mail killionw@fmmc.army.mil